I started to write this poem maybe more than a few weeks ago. I wanted to keep the timing even in it’s unevenness? Does that make sense? It was also possibly a rap song. Haha
If you can guess what it’s regarding then major kudos to you. I wrote it with so, so many in mind. So many thoughts and feelings as I watched friends and family.
In God’s Merciless Design
Who am I?
A player in a game
This one that never wins
My days had fallen
Begun by prayers and filled
And now all I see is sin
Mired in my end
The beginning to an end
A justified descent
Who am I?
My life has been a blank
Canvas drawn upon
A program that’s been hacked
A sedentary pawn
The king and queen all laugh
At the jester in the court
Graded by other’s praise
Decided by spent days
Who am I?
The friend you used to know
The plant that never grows
The loser that you found
Discarded by the roadside
Looking through the dumpster
Of that restaurant gone under
All covered in soot and grime
Remarkably un-dined… and Undying
Who am I?
Just a lowly creature below
The god’s play thing through each season
Fighting through the chaos
Of, and for un-reason
A hopeful dreamer that one kind gesture
Will be given and bestowed
Upon this lowly soul
To feel the warmth for once
Who am I?
White clouds float by unused
Mere wisps for us to view
The sky’s better hue
Once contrasted by the blue
And there we stand viewers
Always watching the show
Unsure how it will end
And why we always have to play pretend
Who am I?
But a speck of your cruel design
A droplet of paint at the corner of the matte
Forgotten before the painting was complete
But you completed the work anyway
Who asked, and asked, and again
What answer was received
Did you get one when you asked then
Or, simply left to unbelief
Who am I?
You look deep inside
To see it was merely a glimpse
A speck in the eye
God’s merciless design
Was there ever meaning
At any single time
When you looked in the mirror to see
A broken kind
~Fini~
And that’s the poem. Please feel free to comment and let me know your thoughts.
Please have a better day and better week. Always, may things get better and not worse. I hope you all find what you seek, search and look for in this life.
Love you Gracie! 🙂 ❤
